Love

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this it is call Love. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. 

That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Love is roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two." 

Is love important? i told myself, yes it is! even its a temporary madness but the feelings is different! Not everyone understands it, only if you had a love ones to love then you will understand and value it...

and feel love is infinite...

I need to be strong enough to fight and stand still....2011 just started, and its just 2 months, and i feel its a long way for me to travel all alone!..my journey is very far and will take some time to settle peacefully..

this year is a very tough year for me...work commitment is at the max, my career advancement and also upon completion of my Master degree is another hard one that i am going through now... 

Oh god, give me the strength and courage to continue my journey with your blessings!

Work Work Work

Thinking of work - we need energy, strength, courage, patience and so on..of all we be free from worries and problems than only can concentrate well in work...

Talking about work, perhaps would like to share on my work or would say my profession as lecturer even its very tiring job and loose lots of energy but i just love it!....i love teaching and i spend more of my time in college with students...hmmm students....students....students..... they gave me happiness, they make strong at times, of cause sadness if they never perform well and no matter what i love my students so much....being the head of school or the lecturer in charge as i mention earlier in my first introduction, is not as what i expected! it is a challenging and tough role to play about....but i learn to face the difficulties and people use to help me when i stuck badly in any consequences..... 

the happiness lies in me in this career when i see them growing...developing in front of my eyes...thats the proud i have, thats the moment i wish to see in all my students going up the stage to receive their scrolls...what else! i will shed in tears - tears of joy! i will continue be a good lecturer, good counselor, good friend, a good guidance for SCM students!

Not only students brighten my life, but the people in SCM...we are like one family...its normal in a family we have misunderstanding and conflicts but later on it will be rectified quickly..same in SCM... even thou sometimes we do feel upset, unfair and so on but the love lies in the heart... here the place i learn to be strong, knowing different people with different and unique background...sigh....good experience!  as i said one family we use to have gathering and outings together, thats the best time to know each other and to enjoy the moments which is out of our tune :), haha.....enjoy enjoy but when serious time we use to "kena tembak kaukau" one...but its all a stepping stone:).

I will do my very best in SCM till my last day! ;). 

Feelings

I don't think we get do good writing unless we are exposed ourself. Deep songs don't come from the surface; they come from the deep down. The poetry and the songs that we are suppose to write, I believe are in your heart. This is feelings i suppose :). 

                  

We usually will have happy feelings, sad feelings, bad feelings, and so on... The most important thing here, we must understand other people's feelings. This is because, as human we must be able to respect people around us then will gain respect as well. In short, as human we must feel empathy for others...If we cant be great human, at least we feel what other feel..Are we ready? Lets pause and think :)

Break

This is what i feel ;). 

Long holidays not that good actually...bored one thing, but had to get ourself ready for work after a long break...sigh! Nothing much i did in this break, was busy with my thesis, doing amendments after being rejected for the first time :(, watching movies at home, sleep all the day, marking papers and etc etc etc....sigh, the same routine job everyday...bored breaks!

Motivation is Important?

Everyone wants and deserves a better life. What do you have to do to develop more self-confidence, better self-esteem and greater internal motivation to be the best? It all starts with how you think.


What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Simple, about ME ;)

"Start everyday with a smile" thats my favorite quotation in my life...talking about me, well I am a very simple person with a simple background....Being youngest in the family, not really pampered but will always try to be pampered..hehe...Loving parents, having 2 eldest brothers, 1 elder sister and me in the family and looking at them having their own families, hmmmm...when is my turn? haha...long way to go i suppose....

Not only being the youngest in the family but also being aunties to my three nieces and two nephews..Oh no! its not that simple...If they come back, all will jump on me and be so excited i guess to have a small size aunt for them that gives them advantage! haha but the eldest nephew very scared of me, just one look he will keep quiet... my sis always tease him by saying "i am his step mother", he cant accept that...I admit that i am bit strict on him  due to his studies as he is very playful yet will only listen to me...there where i stand in his life ;)...
I do have a sister (was with my family before she got married just like my another sister) is married,now in JB..she is the one who brought me up...hmmm, i still remember when i was in kindergarten, she use to feed me, bath me and prepare me to school..i love her so much..n still take her as the eldest..so here i have 2 eldest sister...im so pampered to her even till today :). she has three lovely kids are also very close to me...wonder how are they now??.....long time didnt contact due to work commitment, sigh....

I thanked God for giving me a family and siblings around that always loves me around but now all are away from me as all have their own families to take care off....left me alone here taking care of my parents....bored being alone but what to do, life has to go on....

After complete my undergraduate from UUM, I got a job in Stamford College Malacca (SCM) as a Lecturer in the year 2008 till now...I love this profession as it was my dream in teaching as being influenced by one my former lecturer...i took her as my role model, her name was Puan Sazrina...wonder how is she now? thank you Puan  :).
In SCM, I had a good friend, we join SCM together..she is Loo Wee Hong...we were like "kembar", that was what my colleagues use to say... after sometime, she left there as got a better offer...again, i was left alone...hmmm, life has to go on, right? :). after one year, i was promoted as Lecturer in Charge for the School of Business for Diploma in Corporate Administration programme...hmmm very challenging post...will     elaborate more later in the other section about my work life, not only on work life but more to share :).

I love people who loves me by accepting me and my character...I am friendly but not that easy to be close to me, muhaha...I will only be close to people that i love and they are meant to my life :). They know me well as time goes...I dont like to get angry, but i get...haha, want try?? better no!... even sometimes, people around makes me upset, i will smile and say "be patient"..."be patient?"...this is also not in me actually, but someone special taught me to be patient, thats where i learn :). who is that someone?? more to know, stay tune ;).